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Relapse (Reissue)

by Chiasm

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1.
Embryonic 06:28
EMBRYONIC-what is the pain/you’ll never feel/what is the life/i’ll never heal/ i took that from you/sacrifice to know what grows inside/destroyed by me/incubated/ the life that’s born to die/i can feel it moving inside/the life is washed away/ sterile and incubated/in death the life will pay/i took that from you/i took that from you/ i will create you/i will create you/ the life that’s born to die
2.
Surrender 03:54
SURRENDER-I lie alone/the fog surrounds me and I know that it’s not right/i must escape this awful state of night/ so here I tread/and standing still without a phase of sight to dread/the noise completes the pictures in my head/ you learn you must surrender/it’s taken time for you to realize/that what you felt is not forever/ you find you must surrender/and now you see the world with no disguise/and face the truth of now and never/ the rain pours down on me/ the clarity i sought would make us free/but in the depths of fate/ the answers drowned beneath this mud of hate/i gasp to breathe the cause/that brought us to this place yet here we pause/ and in the fear of dawn/the innocence I dreamt about is gone
3.
Delay 03:38
DELAY-i thought there was a place/where stars shone bright with grace/ and rain fell slow to time/as wind dispersed its seed/and now I learn I can’t revive the past I’ve lost/ and I shall pay the cost/disuaded by the state that traps my mind in place/delay/there is always time/ but how much will i be calling mine today/i will search to find/a chance that else may only bring delay/ i’ll repeat the line/replace the marks insisting that I stay/towards the sun that blinds my way/ delay/ i can see now you’re lost inside the trap that holds you down/the safety of your net creates a yearning to regress/on back receding towards a tiny place that holds you close/ to feel the dark it makes within your yearning to embrace/the fear that grows inside keeps churning every day/ as the world surrounds and moves to block your way/and now you’re holding back the things that you regret/ but reaching towards the sky brings more than you could bet
4.
Rewind 04:08
REWIND-a time of changing has begun/the leaves are fallen and undone/inside your spirit starts to run/ and all my fears are overcome/i feel the time has come and that it’s for real/i see the future turn inside of me/ i find i’m ready to rewind/and erase the pain that’s haunted me in time/i watch the days as they fly by/ the turmoil ceases to subside/beyond the shadows freedoms hide/and now the chances have arrived/ i can’t escape/this feeling that my world’s about to break/and I can’t wait for all that’s built inside to finally wake/ this time I know that what’s ahead will likely overflow/ although my fear is bound to grow/as time will show/i can’t escape the knowledge that my world is full of hate/ i can’t resist the urge to seek out all that might exist/as I tread on the world may think i’m gone/ and erase the pain that’s traced what I’ve become/it’s all undone
5.
Still 04:18
STILL-Still I can hear your voice/still I await the choice to find/your peace of mind/still i awake so cold/ still hear your breath unfold/your hand on solid land/lost I await your call/lost I can hear you fall/ the same cold misty rain/here I am found at last/here I’ll forget the past/and find what’s truly mine/ i can hear your conscience dancing/i can feel the fear unfold/i can see the tension grasping/ now I know the still you hold/now I know the still you hold/ i can still hear you/i can still feel you/ you left a mark that will not ever change/now that I will find your peace of mind/your path awaits me/ i can’t erase the/unending touch that makes my breath unfold/i’ll be here until you break the still/ i’ll be here until you break the still
6.
X-ray 04:21
X-RAY-What’s inside me? A part of me awakes/to light that shines against the knowledge that we break/ and as you tear it down/i see the truth that binds your answer’s frown/what’s inside me?/ i see what you can’t find/i see what’s inside me/what’s inside me?/what you can’t find/ i see you walk away/i cannot share the fate that I have seen/I know that what’s to come is not so far away/ and love is seen beyond the answers laid in front of me/another way to see the path that leads me in my dreams/ and here I wake to be embraced by love inside/now I cannot hide/now I cannot hide/you’ve grasped until you breached/ all the light is gone/and waked before the night had dawned/ponder my mind alone/ now I can see beyond your throne
7.
Incision 03:23
INCISION-You cut right into me/i didn’t think you’d leave yourself to see/ and now we’ll never know/ the lessons you had wanted us to show/i never did remind you/ the things that you had felt I can’t recall/and I won’t find you/your selfish need for freedom made you fall/ and now you’re free/will always be/it’s hard to see/i cannot see your face/ behind the tracks you claim to have erased/and since your place is gone/i cannot feel where you and I belong/ i knelt to find you/but couldn’t help but hear you tell me not/to reach behind you/ and taste the fear that lead us to your plot/and now I can’t remind you/ that more existed than you claimed to be/and I won’t find you/your selfish need for justice made you free/ you cut right into me/i didn’t think you’d leave yourself to see/ and now we’ll never know/the lessons you had wanted us to show/and now you’re free/ will always be/it’s hard to see/and now you’re free/will always be
8.
Phobic 04:03
PHOBIC- you see inside/you see inside/you read my mind/you read my mind/you survived a hellish dream/ now the light can mend the seams/ but your will wraps tight around/ watch the sky come crashing down/ you breathe/ believe/ you touch/ won't face I need you so much/ embrace/ encase/ I fear/ your love for me is so clear/ a love that's so defined/ you'll never wake the newness that can be/ a happiness so kind/ mistaken for seductive falsity/ just knowing that you're mine/ erases all reverse complexity/ the emptiness unwinds an unexpected flexibility/ I arrived on foreign land/ with no one to hold my hand/ but my guide came shining through/ from the fog alone stood you/ came shining through/ alone stood you
9.
Needle 02:57
NEEDLE (a.k.a. “Injection”)-Now the names are chosen/and the cage is open/push the needle right through/ soon i’ll be without you/don’t know how I will feel inside/every day I can see it lie/ holding back the pain waiting ready to die/hold the subject down/slide the needle in place/ i can feel it inside/shows across my face/every day I can see it lie holding back the pain waiting ready to die/ go to sleep sweet angel/let me wipe the pain away/let the drug control you/just relax and close your eyes/ every day I can see it lie holding back the pain waiting ready to die
10.
Chosen Fate 04:38
CHOSEN FATE- unborn I feed on you alone/ when will my soul become my own?/ soon I'll awake the world to see/ learning a false reality/ I'm left with no escape/ won't live with chosen fate/ existence is a fraud/ who says you should play God?/ the future is at stake/ a new life to awake/ a life of every wish/ perfection for the rich/ attempt to fight disease/ and put our souls at ease/ programmed lethality/ destroyed mortality/ I'm left with no escape/ won't live with chosen fate/ this time we are too late/ there's no time left to wait/ genetic engineer/ what could there be to fear?/ biotechnology/ our new theology/ created by our skill/ what happened to free will?/ specific role to fill/ still not allowed to kill/ the future is at stake/ a new life to awake/ I'm left with no escape/ won't live with chosen fate
11.
Apple Island 03:18
APPLE ISLAND- there was a house inside the island/ only now it's just remains/ and still a story as we're digging/ shows of all of their lives pains/ and yet my heart is nearly broken/ you might find it's not the same/ it is the nature moving quickly as we march on this terrain/ and when you find you're not forgiven and the trees are not quite sane/ it is the path that we have taken that is only left to blame on Apple Island/ as the sky is shining brightly/ navigate this nature's tomb/ we're still amazed by the bright colors that surround this clouded doom/ and as the boats approach the shoreline/ generations surging forth/ and all our notes are clearly captured as our class had done before on Apple Island/
12.
Prefrontal 03:44
PREFRONTAL- Icepick in your brain/ Stick it in/I can hear it ripping/Flesh tears so quick/Make your life a sweet happy silence/ Open up your eyes and you'll see/Soon it will be over/Won't feel a thing/'Cause inside there's no pain receptors/ You can't change my mind/ You can't make me heal/You can't make me happy/I want to feel what's real/ They tell me to erase these feelings I embrace/They hide inside my mind/I hear them speak inside of me/ You can't make me change my mind

about

This version of CHIASM – “Relapse” has been recently recovered from the original unmastered audio files.

These songs have come to mean so much to me over time. I recall composing Embryonic in my first studio apartment in Detroit when first recognizing this would become a lifelong project for me. I remember recording the sounds of the thunderstorm outside my window while writing Surrender at the announcement of war. I remember mourning over my piano while writing Still. I remember tossing cassette tapes in piles for the beginning of Rewind, and performing Phobic and Chosen Fate over and over on stages across the midwest.

I've pulled what I have of these songs together for a complete remastered collection here on Bandcamp. Chosen Fate is an earlier version than previously released on the album, and Apple Island and Prefrontal were released on digital-only EPs soon afterwards, finally taking their place on this incredible full-album Reissue.

Thank you all again for your continued inspiration and support!! :)

credits

released May 5, 2023

All songs written, programmed, performed and produced by Emileigh Rohn. Recorded in MausHaus Studio 1997-2006. Remastered by Jean-Marc Lederman in 2023. Artwork by Christian Petke/DCore.


Chiasm Biography:

Chiasm is an industrial-influenced electronic solo music project created by Emileigh Rohn in 1997. Her music is self-written, programmed, performed and produced in her Michigan-located studio, the MausHaus. The name Chiasm (pronounced as the greek letter X, /kai/, rhyming with sky, then "asm") was chosen in reference to the optic chiasm, a neuronal brain structure shaped as an “X” in dedication to her full-time career in science.

Fans of Chiasm may have discovered her through the inclusion of her song, "Isolated", as featured on the album "Disorder" (2001), on the Vampire the Masquerade, "Bloodlines" PC game or in the Navy:NCIS episode, "Marine Down".

Her albums are available through COP International records, and along with "Disorder" include the Chiasm vs. TL5 remix collection, “Divided We Fall” (2003), "Relapse" (2005), “Prefrontal” (EP 2006), "Reform" (2008), "Apple Island" (EP 2009), "Obligatory" (EP 2012), “11:11” (2012), “Mice On A Wheel” (EP 2017), “In Hiding” (EP 2018), and “Reset” (2019). She collaborated with the legendary producer John Fryer for a full length album, Missed The Noise in 2021. She continues with her solo work for the future, as well as vocal/lyrics composition for the project Rohn-Lederman, now with their full-length albums Venus Chariot and Rage! available on Bandcamp and Spotify.

The full collection can be found on iTunes, Amazon and Bandcamp!
Find vinyl and CDs at: chiasm.bandcamp.com and rohn-lederman.bandcamp.com

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Chiasm is a solo industrial-influenced electronic project from Detroit, MI created by Emileigh Rohn. She has recently finished writing and recording a new full-length album, "Zone" for release in 2024 and has made the collaborative project "Rohn-Lederman" her main focus in the past years with a new album there in progress!! rohn-lederman.bandcamp.com ... more

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